Introducing Baby #3...Meet Carver Reid!
This blog post has been a long time coming….
Looking back at my last post, it was September and oh my. Where do I start? How does one regurgitate four months of LIFE that has happened? lol. The real answer is that…I can’t. I can’t catch you up on the past four months. There is far too much that has happened. So, I’m not going to even attempt to do that.
I CAN take you through what I have FELT during the past four months and the feelings I had in end of my pregnancy, because I want to. But I really just came on here to update y’all on Carver’s birth & life now. Because life right now is pretty great. I officially have three, (YES THREE!) kids and although life is pretty crazy, I really wouldn’t have it any other way. The joy that a new baby brings into a family’s life is indescribable and completely amazing. We are so in love with our newest little bundle :)
All that being said…let’s dive in!
My Last Months of Pregnancy:
So…I said I wanted to take you through my feelings on this, because I know there are other women out there struggling with the same. exact. thing. I started this blog to HELP people, and that is what I want to continue to do.
My ACTUAL pregnancy came with no complications and everything was normal and healthy with baby and myself. My personal struggle during my pregnancy came with low feelings of self-esteem and my self-image was AWFUL. I know…it’s silly, right?
Silly. But real.
With this pregnancy, I gained the most I have ever gained with any of my three pregnancies. I just really didn’t care what I ate and I basically put no limitations on food. I gained 60 pounds. I’m not telling you this so that you can feel sorry for me, or so that I can feel sorry for myself. I’m telling you this, because in my head I wasn’t in the best of places. Even though I KNEW i had a beautiful, healthy baby boy inside of me and even though I knew I had no complications during pregnancy, it still had me all messed up in the head. Which screwed with my confidence, my body image, all of it.
So, why am I telling you this? TBH, I’m really not sure. Maybe because I want you to know that if you’re going through this currently…it’s OKAY. Like, yes, I gained 60 pounds, but now i have a beautiful baby boy and life is great.
Maybe its because I want you to know that women’s bodies are FREAKING INCREDIBLE! I carried a baby for nine months, gained 60 pounds, delivered a healthy baby…and now I’m feeding that same baby WITH my body. Like, what?? Mind-blowing. Seriously.
Maybe its because I want any woman out there (pregnant or not) to know that you are WORTHY, no matter what weight you are.
Maybe it’s because I want to share this with you, because I am more determined than ever to lose this baby weight. (Can’t wait to start working out again!)
Man, y’all. Those last few months were HARD. I’m not going to lie. I had two small kids to take care of while being VERY pregnant and not feeling very great about myself.
I just kept telling myself that I didn’t have much longer and TRIED to convince myself to enjoy my last little bit of pregnancy. Truth was…I couldn’t wait to NOT be pregnant anymore and to finally meet our baby!
I know some of you might be thinking…..wow, she’s complaining about being pregnant???? Some people can’t have babies and she’s sitting here complaining? I know, it might come off that way and I promise I have no intentions of complaining. I started this blog and journal really to be REAL and HONEST with y’all, and that is what I intend to do. I am simply taking you through my personal feelings.
And…I KNOW I cannot be the only one who has gone through feelings like this.
For the record…it is not my intention to make anyone upset or mad about me “complaining” about my pregnancy.
Carver’s Birth Day:
Carver was born on 12/31/18! New Years Eve! While y’all were sipping on champagne and ringing in the New Year, we were in the hospital having a baby! I think it’s so cool for him to have a birthday on New Years Eve, and I hope we can have a fun family tradition when he gets older….(I’m thinking NYC to see the ball drop…but then again it might be way too cold for that lol)
I was scheduled for my c-section at 7:15 am on 12/31/18. My parents had come into town to watch KInley & Caleb while we stayed in the hospital. We left for the hospital at a bout 4 o’clock in the morning after about ZERO sleep that night, because HOW do you sleep when you know you’re going to have a baby in a matter of hours???
Y’all, I was nervous.
Even though I had been through two c-sections with no complications at all, I was still nervous. There is something about walking into the operating room to be sliced open (I’m sorry, but that’s what happens) and you having NO control over anything.
I was very comfortable with my doctor and the hospital i was delivering at. But being a nurse, I just know too much. I was still very nervous.
My husband and I had said ALOT of prayers before the surgery, and I just knew it was in God’s hands. I knew God was in control and we had to put our faith and trust in him. That was the ONLY thing that relaxed me. And squeezing Adam’s hand the entire time…
During the c-section, I heard the doctors talking with each other about getting massages and what not, lol, so I knew everything must be okay.
Once the doctor said, “OK, you’re going to feel a lot of pressure now”, I knew it was time to meet baby and I just prayed that he would be okay and start crying after he was out.
Turns out I didn’t feel much pressure at all (epidurals are weeiiiiiird & amazing things, y’all), but I did hear the doctor say, “He’s got a pretty cute face”.
THEN the crying started. I mean LOUD CRYING. Y’all. He had a pair of lungs on him.
I guess he was pretty cozy inside me and didn’t know what was going on when he was pulled out, but I was soooo happy to hear him crying!
I got a quick glance of him while Adam took pictures as the doctor held him up over the blue curtain that separated me and my open belly.
HE WAS BEAUTIFUL. AND HEALTHY. Thank God!!!
He looked like both of our others babies did. (What I mean by that is that we historically make babies with chubby cheeks and round heads, lol.)
They then took him away to the other side of the delivery room to be checked out and Adam went with them. The HARDEST part was waiting for them to hand me the baby, because I immediately wanted to hold him and inspect every inch of him.
But I knew I had to be patient….I could still hear him crying, so I knew everything was okay.
I think they had him over there for about 10-15 minutes, but it seemed like HOURS. I asked if he was okay a few times, and they said he was just fine.
Finally, Adam came over to me holding our brand new baby boy, all swaddled up and sleeping so peacefully. Y’all, if I could tell you how proud my husband looked in that exact moment, I would. He was BEAMING. It was like…..We did this. We made this beautiful baby. Everything is going to be okay.
I finally got to hold him for just a couple minutes or so, while I was still being sewn up from my c-section.
I noticed his tiny little, perfect nose and his reddish-colored hair right away. And the tiny little wrinkles on his forehead.
Praise God! He was perfect!
Theres something so special about getting to see your baby for the first time. I can’t describe it, but imagine being the happiest, proudest person in the world. And then it’s waayyy more than that. Truthfully, you can’t prepare for that moment. Because it’s way better than you’ve ever could have imagined. After three kids, the feeling is still the same…and just as good.
I don’t for a second take that moment for granted. Having a child is an absolute blessing.
We were a family of five. It was official.
We actually thought of his name only about a month before he was born with a little help from my sister. We were debating if we wanted to keep the “C” or “K” sound, like our other kids. And then she suggested the name Carver to me.
For those who don’t know, we are big Hawkeye fans & both went to the University of Iowa. The arena they play basketball in is Carver Hawkeye Arena.
After she asked me what I thought about the name Carver, I knew I liked it, but honestly didn’t think my husband would. I thought it would be too “different” for him. Turns out, he really liked it right from the beginning!
It was settled. Done.
We make quick decisions like that. lol.
We wanted a one-syllable middle name. (It just sounds best), so I started googling. We liked the “R” sound and it came down to Ray or Reid or Reed. We decided on Reid together and I have to say I LOVE IT so much and feel like it fits him to a tee!
Well, life is great! I’m hoping to update y’all more on this in the weeks to come, but since i’ve been so MIA on the blog…I’ll let you know that life is definitely crazy with three kids, but all is good!
Kinley & Caleb have adjusted so well to welcoming a new baby into the family! The best part has been seeing how much they love on him. It just makes my heart so full, and my husbands too.
Carver fits perfectly into this family, and loves to hear his brother and sisters sweet voices when the talk to him.
Do they not look like the proudest brother and sister you have ever seen?!?!? Major heart eyes.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, y’all and thanks for stopping by and giving me grace as I’ve taken quite the break from blogging.
I have missed you ALL and I have missed writing on this tiny corner of the internet. I hope to be on here more. It is certainly my intention, but with a new baby…..well you know :) Life is busy.
I hope you all had a great holiday and I wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year!! Let’s make 2019 the best year YET!!!